Saturday, 27 August 2011

..one still night...

..her stirring awakes him..he stretches out and she curls as he gently strokes her..through the window, a waning moon sends in its silvery light and with its soft glow he casts a sleepy eye at the clock looking down upon him benignly..it is 3 o'clock in the morning...by the time he comes out of the bathroom, she stretches, acknowledging him with a small meow...as he dresses for prayer, she rubs herself against his legs..he pushes her aside, and stood in a 'qiam'...Allah...hu akbar...and she lies in a crouch next to his prayer-mat...

Lord, Your Mercy is like the rain that falls unabated from the heaven above..and Your Compassion the clouds from which burst forth the rain....I am never among those deserving your Edens and Heavens...but I am too weak and puny for the pain and suffering of your punishment and purgatory...I seek your Forgiveness..and I seek Your Mercy...

..he sits there a moment in the stillness, suddenly aware of her purring as unconsciously he strokes her...

..Lord, let this tears be a testimony to a pair of eyes that reach out to the deepest abyss of my heart...  with only one desire...accept me, Lord, as your guest, that I may feast those eyes on your House....that I may cry out...


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17 comments:

Kama At-Tarawis said...

Insyaallah, dengan kehendakNya akan sampai Pakmat ke Tanah Suci Makkah sebagaimana dirancang.. Insyaallah..

Cat-from-Sydney said...

Abe Mat,
May Allah SWT answers your prayers. purrrr *giggles*

Zendra-Maria said...

Taqabbalallahu Minna...

School Of Tots said...

Kepada Pak Mat sekeluarga. Daripada SOT sekeluarga: Salam Raya & Maaf Zahir Batin. Pandu Cermat InsyaAllah Selamat. Selamat berbahagia bersama orang tersayang.

Red Alfa said...

Salam Pak Mat

One will and will always be amazed by what the fervent prayers in the dead of night will bring!...

...tears of joy to what is impossible is nothing.

But that you have always known and will hold fast to, don't you?

Still we wish you panjang umor and your doa dikabulkan.

Freddie Kevin said...

Salam Pak Mat,

May this Hari Raya Aidilfitri find you and your family in good health and happiness.

Regards
Freddie

cek said...

salam Pak Mat,
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, maaf zahir batin.

Semoga Pak Mat menyambut Aidilfitri dengan penuh kemeriahan.


cek

YuinTing said...

Dear Pak Mat,
Selamat Hari Raya Aidifitri.
May you have a great time with all your loved ones!

Wan Sharif said...

May Syawal brings you Allah's Maghfirah .. Doa saya may you be successful in your quest to be "tetamu Allah"

goodaspirin said...

This post moves me. You're a good man Pak Mat.

Nur Misnan said...

Amin Pak Mat.. Aku doakan agar
cepat sampai hajat untuk tanah suci..

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin Pak mat

Seorang Blogger said...

Amin..
Dengan rahmat dan rahimNya Insyaallah Pakmat sapa jugok ke pintu rumahNya suatu hari nanti.
My prayers with you, semoga dipermudahkan segala urusan
;-)

Anonymous said...

Salam..I find it interesting reading your blog. Here i am at the age where you now wrote as once upon a time and when now you said you have learn your mistakes and take it as part of your life, asam garam..I hope i can be like you, taking life one stride at a time in a more wholistic view and always remember how i will one day come to face Allah and repent and strive to be the best i can..maybe not necesarrily the generally accepted norm by society, but nontheless the best as i can be in all circumstances..

bila muda we wont think about all this..when we are near the end..only then we start to reflect and ponder..and think of God and afterlife...

I hope your wife got a place with you too..

pakmat said...

..thank you, friends..your kind words and thoughts very much appreciated..may Allah showers His Hidayah upon you, and includes you all amongst those who receives his Blessings and shown His Path..take care..

Anonymous said...

Alhamdulillah, As Salam Pak Mat, berkat pertolongan orang terdekat dan doa sahabat2 seperti Pak Mat Insha Allah saya dan isteri telah diberi peluang untuk menunaikan Fardhu Haji tahun ini (baru tahu 2 hari lepas). Semoga kita diberikan kekuatan menghadapi segala dugaan, dijauhkan dari segala yang melalaikan dan dipermudahkan segala urusan sebelum dan sesudah berangkat dan pentingnya bila tiba di sana. Insha Allah. Doakan saya Pak Mat.

Jitraman (Saidi Ahmad)

pakmat said...

..alhamdulillah, jitraman..I am happy for you..and we must meet..please leave your contact number with Tabong Haji Mekah..or with HA Kanan Kesihatan Hj. Zalami Yaacob..a cousin bertugas musim ini..cheers, take care..

Anonymous said...

Insha Allah Pak Mat, I'll take note of that.

Wassalam.