Tuesday, 15 September 2009

..raya ramblings..


..the raya songs is getting to me..

..sometimes, we just do not see things in perspective..God created this universe so vast that it is nigh impossible for man to circumvent it..and He filled it with trillions upon trillions of stars and other mysterious objects that man just cannot keep track of it..and never ceased to wonder over it..

..and somewhere within this vastness is a tiny speck of dust that we called home...earth..the only one we know, and the only one we have..

..yet, we chose to fight over every little thing that we thought is ours..we fought over a lil bit of land, over a lil bit of water..we declare war over a matter of language,.over creed, race and over every petty little thing..sometimes over nothing...we see enemies lurking in every shadow..

..we failed to see that this whole planet earth, this tiny speck of dust, is ours to keep..and it is ours to share, and care...for we are His caliphs..but our time on it is so brief..

..and so, with the end of Ramadhan near...and IdilFitri just around the corner, I am standing to be counted..I am standing before God, in all humility, seeking His forgiveness..for all my failures and sins..for my misdeeds and transgressions..

..before my wife and ex-wives I stood, too..please find the grace in your hearts to forgive me..I am not the best of husbands..nor the man you all thought I was...I do not have the qualities that you all seeked..I am just what I am borned to be..a man without pretensions, trying hard to carry the mantle of caliphship and faltered trying...

..and before my children..for I am not the best of fathers...and there are times when my ego blinded me to your needs..actions only after bouts of regrets..this old man is standing before you now..please forgive your father his inadequacies..his faults and his wrongs..

..and I stand before my friends..forgive me if I did not turned out to be the friend that I am supposed to be..

..selamat Hari Raya IdilFitri...


11 comments:

pacoksiku said...

salam lebaran buat pakmat ..

loose cannon said...

This entry, PakMat, is inspiring and honest to the core...it moved me. Yes sometimes we fight over trivial issues that we forget what our actual role is.

I didn't know you had more than one ex-wife!!!!

Anyway I hope to see you one fine day!

pakmat said...

..lc, I am a retired old rogue and vagabond..learning very late in life that when you marry in haste, you'll divorce in regret..and I'm not one who'd turn down a plea of marriage. then...selamat hari raya, lc..may your days be blessed..

razifembi said...

Selamat Menyambut Hari Raya buat Tuan Sekeluarga dari relaxjom .....

salam singgah ...

juk said...

Insya Allah, saya akan pi Bachok kalau ada kesempatan. Tapi lepas raya la sebab jalan akan jammed giler time2 cam ni. Jalan kg di umah saya di Machang pun buleh jammed! Heran betul pakcik.

pakmat said...

razifembi..selamat hari raya, rf..tk kerana sudi singgah..hebat blog saudara..will be following u..

juk..ada masa singgah le..

pacoksiku..salam kembali..tk..telah tinggal komen diblog tuan..kek saya menjadi..ada masa singgah bachok..

Oldstock said...

We are what we are, Pak Mat. Sometimes we try to change for the better but there is a time when a limit is reached. If we can't be the best, the least we can be is being honest.

Salam aidilfitri buat Pak Mat sekeluarga. Maaf zahir batin. Orang rumah masak lauk apa pagi raya?

razifembi said...

DIA jugal lah yang hebat ... sentiasa memberi pedoman dan hidayah ...

wish to know you also ... oldtimer ....

hehehe...

sekali lagi mohon maaf

Shifu67 said...

Selamat Hari Raya.... jom makan tart nanas...

Pp said...

selamat hari raya pokmat~!!
maaf zahir batin...

kalu ado di daerah mekah tu ghoyat korr ambo deh...boleh kito jupppo...ambo ado di jedoh.

pakmat said...

..oldstock..yes, we are what we are..and I am now trying to be honest with myself..salam raya to u and family..

..razifembi..and I want to know you , too, youngtimer..

..juk..Bachok berlimpah ruah dgan kereta..

..shifu67..tkasih..nanti bertambah pula inci..

..Pp..salam, mr. payne..tk kerana singgah dilaman situa...InsyAllah..pada suata masa dan waktu..u might just get a call in Jeddah..selamat hari raya di
rantau..